Under The Weather

Makin tua makin lemah tu immune badan walaupun setiap hari makan Vit.C, fish oil dan minum lemon green tea panas setiap pagi.

Baru kena hujan last Sunday during a hike to Gangar, terus malam dia sakit kena flu. Maybe coz of the sejukness. Alahai apalah nasib badan.

The hike was fun and yes, ada juga satu pacat gatal berjaya hinggap di tangan. Kurenges bah tu pacat. Pikir saya ni penderma darah ka. Kin malu saja keluar suara ganas. Hahahahahahahaha!

Tapi kisah menyedihkan adalah bila kami satu group sama hikers berpengalaman kunun. Tidak mencabar lah, lambat lah. Hey ho! Just enjoy every moment. This is not a competition. Semuakah mau berlumba.

Cakap pasal berlumba, manusia sekarang ni suka betul bertanding. Untuk kepuasan hati kali but seriously at this age am not interested to compete with anyone.

Mau kaya, berlumba.
Mau ada anak, berlumba.

Mau mati, tidak pula berlumba.
Mau kumpul iman, tidak pula berlumba.

I is malas surrounded by peoples as such.
Pelan2 saya undur diri supaya tidak stress hidup dengan berada di kalangan mereka ini.

Take it or leave it

Kalau kamu inda suka bah, kamu stay or move on?
The best thing to do is to leave bah kan?
If you can't handle some peoples drama, why stay?

Atau kesimpulannya, kalau inda suka, kita undur diri...
Inda payah susah2 mau melayan orang/tabiat yang kita inda minat....

Macam juga ni blog, if it is nonsense to you, why the need to continue reading?
Why bah why...

So, mama PM me thru' WA yesterday afternoon.
Dia meluahkan perasaan dia....
Dia sakit hati pasal tabiat seseorang...
Kesian gia my mama...
Mama saya ni dia punya penyabar tahap dewa bah...
Dia inda cerewet lagi...
Kalau dia inda puas hati, dia diam saja...
Dia tidak pigi jaja jaja cerita pasal kelemahan orang sama orang lain...

Saya ingat bah masa saya kicik lagi,
My dad was an alcoholic..
Kalau mabuk, start la tu bapa mengamuk but inda la dia pukul mama but tu bapa teriak2 la, marah2 la...
Mama sabar saja...
My grandma (dad's mom) tidak suka mama pun, mama sabar saja...
Sendiri2 tahan hati but mama still layan my nenek bagus2 walaupun nenek saya cerewet betul....

Okay, pasal mama meluah tu...
Dia kecewa sama satu orang ni...
Saya kesian juga sama mama saya bah...
Tapi I can't do nothing but only listen..

Ini nasihat saya sama diri sendiri dan orang yang berkenaan...
Kalaupun kau SANGAT INDA suka sama mama saya, tulunglah tidak payah kasi tunjuk sama mama saya KETIDAK SUKAAN kau tu...
Mama saya inda pigi kasi buruk2 kau juga....
Maybe once in a while mama ada tegur kau but it is because dia anggap kau anak bah...
Kami sudah tua gini pun masih kena tegur, kalau langsung dia tidak peduli, jangan haraplah dia mo peduli but mom is not someone like that..

Kalaupun kau tidak mau kena peduli, don't show it PLEASEEEEE!!
Be matured bah...
FAKE IT if possible...
Walaupun you hate my mom, ko berpura2 saja suka dia, good enough...
Tua sudah bah si mama tu...
Hati pun cepat touch...

Honestly, saya kalau tidak suka something, saya diam saja, senyum tidak perlu kata apa2...
Lainlah kalau tu orang duluan yang inda mo tingu muka kau then the other person deserves same treatment too....

Mama saya bukan mau minta layan macam Queen..
Mama saya sedar diri juga dia siapa...
Tapi to treat her like she doesn't exists is too much especially from a person like you..
Educated person like you....

It shows that your personal communication skill FAIL!

Inda apalah...
Teruskan sahaja gaya kau begitu....
We both (mom & me) pray the best for you...

I tell my mom, not to think too much..
Let it go...
Not worth the time to layan orang sebegini....

What if.....

Banyak betul soalan...
Kebarangkalian...
What if...
What if....

Macam saya rasa saya betul-betul tidak bersedia...
I had planned this year...

Banyak fikiran...
Makes me overthinking of the "what if" questions...

Saya rasa annoyed betul with all these...
Saya bukan rasa ini adalah ujian but I'm not ready....
Saya mau my "me" time dulu....
Saya belum puas hati....

I need holiday...
I need me time...

Nantilah sambung cerita...
I don't feel good...
About everything....

SHE: Berserah sahaja....

Among the cloud, Over the sea

Currently reading IT by Stephen King and it greatly affected my mood..
Not in a bad way but I remember reading his book at UiTM KK when I was studying my diploma...
Reading a good book that suit ur taste brought you to the world of the story that was written...
You are in ur own world and inside with the characters....

I missed traveling....
I do... badly...

Sometimes I couldn't believe that I had been to certain places that I can only dream of....
It never crossed my mind that one day some of these dreams do come true...
Thank God for this chance and blessing...

Miles and miles away from home, experiencing how peoples live their life in other continents...
Strange language...
Tight budget....

The place I missed the most is Japan....
See, being a fan of JP anime could be the reason why this country top the list of place I want to be...

Harajuku...
Shibuya...
Hiroshima...
Erghhhhhhh.....

I need a time off...
The politics in the office is taking it tolls...
...I hate it....

I feel unhappy....
It wasn't that I'm not thankful but the way how this workplace are operating now, is not in favor to my mental health...

Tingulah sampai mana boleh bertahan...
Tiada hati sudah ni....

SHE: Long vacation needed. No drama.