Prioritise

Was reading through the travel notes provided by our travel agent for the November trip to Holyland. Then it hit me, do I need all these travels for therapy?

Money, family?

Sometimes the truth is I am in dilemma.
When it comes to traveling, I have to left behind my small family (dude & sumandak).

I need to refresh why I want to travel other places.
I do not want it to be a hobby, a passion or for fun.

I want something out of it.
Knowledge.
Lesson.
Experience.
I need it to broaden my perspective about life.

Saya tidak mau it becomes a trend yang konon, wah dorang pigi sana, saya wajib pigi sana juga.
I want to learn something from it.
I want that my every travel, it changes me.
For the better.
With nothing to brag about.
It just part of life.

Tiba-tiba saya banyak fikiran petang-petang macam ini.
Life is too short you know.
Death will come in any time unknown and in any forms unimaginable.

The voice inside your head

Saya rasa peoples with high insecurities will always have this negative voice inside their head.

And let me tell you, bukan orang yang memiliki kekurangan yang biasanya ada ini suara sumbang dalam  otak dia.

Biasanya orang yang memiliki almost everything la yang selalu feel insecure. Mungkin dorang rasa, benda yang dorang nikmati itu belum cukup. Belum memuaskan hati. Atau apa saja yang dorang buat itu, bukan untuk diri sendiri tapi untuk memenuhi acuan duniawi.

Contohnya, ada ni orang yang asal ada status kawan dia yg buat dia terasa, terus dia pun counter attack balik melalui status dia. Chill bah chill!

Kau hidup untuk diri sendiri, bukan untuk memenuhi expectation orang yang tidak penting sama kau.

Satu lagi kan, bila kau buat satu benda, tiba2 pandai buat pengumuman "kepada yang benci saya tu"... Wah, macam famous pula macam ramai haters. Hahahahahahhahaha.... Mungkin tiada orang pun peduli tapi kau perasan-perasan sendiri ada orang "AKAN".. diulangi.... "AKAN" mengata pasal kau... Famous oh. Ramai peminat gitew....

Saya?
Saya bagi ulasan saja bah ni. Kalau boleh belajarlah bersyukur. Inda payahlah layan tu suara yang ko sendiri-sendiri buat dalam otak kau supaya kau nampak kasihan.

Babai!

Are you brave enough

This medium has become the media for me to throw away my frustration about almost anything and 99% of its are in regard to the unhealthy workplace after a new leadership taking over.

Not only the new leader is stupid, every single traits as a bad leader, you name it, has their names on his.

As an additional misery, a pain in the ass colleague. Only 1 btw. The rest are okay.

Bit by bit of myself is dying.
Less feeling.
Zombie-like.
No fun.

My hatred is so thick that sometimes I wish a bad karma catching up fast to all these peoples.

We Are Fake Human

Sekarang ni susah mau jumpa orang yang tidak ada social media..
Paling cikai pun whatsapp la...

Tapi untuk yang moden sikit, paling kurang facebook lah...

Kalau yang sangat update, mostly semua ada...
FB, IG, Twitter, Snapchat dan others media...

Media-media ini membuatkan kita semua fake....
Don't believe me?

We prefer to post the best picture of us....
The best caption/status/quote that we can think of....
Sometimes to make us look cool, look up to date, look funny, look passionate, look lovable, look caring and everything associated with the nicest things we can offer, we post only the selected/filtered contents of our life....

Tapi....
Sebenarnya kita cuma orang biasa....
Behind the layers of goodness that we put upfront, are just plain jane...

Saya akun...
What I show only what peoples want to see of me...
I won't post photo that is me looking fat in it...
Or ugly....
All that you see is a projection of what I would like you to think...

Real me....
A struggling me....
An individual that still is lost on her real purpose of life....
I went to church every Sunday, but I still have love-hate relationship with God...
I have too many Qs....
I'm blessed but I still don't find my real inner peace....

Jadi...
What you see is what you get....
Don't believe everything that you see...
It is not a lie but it is also not the real thing...

Old Woman

Turns out I cannot keep up with a younger peoples not on my age range.
They are rebellious, emotional and selfish.

I thought I will survive but I am not.

Yang ada masalah tu, kau yang inda tau apa-apa pun kena tempias. So u ask urself, sama siapa lagi dia gaduh ni. Janganlah kasi jangkit negative vibes kau tu sama orang lain. Ni belimpas tiba-tiba inda mo tingu. Trus ko tepikir "apa salah saya ni kali ah???"


Like I said, malas lah mau berapat-rapat sama orang under age ni. Tidak ngam sudah gaya pemikiran. Dorang pun inda suka kali sama saya yang pemikiran beliau-beliau ni. Macam zaman paleolitik sudah punya pemikiran.

Paling bagus dua-dua main jauh-jauh.
Dua-dua senang hati.

SHE SAID: masih muda juga kamu tu. banyak lagi perlu kamu belajar

The Beginning

Semua post lama had been deleted...

Intro:

This blog is solely my space to write anything based on my 100% point of view. From my observation of life in general, what I feel and etc.

I'm not judging anyone, I write what I feel. If you feel I pointed at ur life's story then I am sorry. If you feel what you are doing is okay, then okay it is. My P.O.V should not be affecting a bit of your personality.

We only live once. Live it right. We are only temporary here, in this world. Let us hope we do as many good things before we leave this place for good.

And for everything else, let it be according to God's will. Amen.

SHE: Nobody is perfect including me but I'm trying my best to live this life to the fullest everyday. Imperfection is never an excuse.