Leave your drama at the door

Kita ni kan, sudah lumrah buat andaian, assumption dalam otak kita....
Otak kita sedang berdialog sama hati kita...
The brain telling you what is real but your heart otherwise...

Kadang tu hati pandai-pandai lagi buat cerita, benda yang tidak wujud pun pandai ada....

Tapi apa yang membezakan orang yang drama dengan tidak adalah orang yang tidak, the conversation stays inside their head....

Meanwhile orang yang drama ni, pigi kasi2 tau orang gitu, gini...
Maka it never happen....
Kalau setakat berlaku dalam otak kau tu, it doesn't count okay!

Terus kunun lah, menjela la caption-caption "to all my haters"
"mohon terasa"
"to all that bash me"

Haduihhhh....
Femes sangat ka sis sampai banyak "penghaters???"
Bukti mana bukti?

Adakah orang macam ini adalah jenis "mohon kasihan diriku" punya jenis?
Atau "bagi saya lebih perhatian?" punya jenis?
Atau "it will polish my popularity if i have many non-existent haters"...

Agak kasihan ya dengan mereka-mereka ini....
Bah teruskanlah dengan kehidupan drama mu yang mendahagakan "haters"

Hmmmm.....
Tapi kan kenapa terhegeh-hegeh mahu haters ah???
Siok ka kena benci???

Sacrificing you.....

There are 9 of us growing up and I wonder how my parents trying hard to raise us, providing all the necessities, foods, education...

I believe they did sacrifice a lot...
Devoted 100% of their time to the family...
No "ME" time...

I remember too, we never had a family holiday like the others...
Only once a while like going to their hometown in  Tamparuli...
Or to KK, visitng sick relatives...

Other than that, we stayed at home...

There is no holiday time like berpiknik tepi sungai, pigi shopping complex, pigi poring... none...

At that time I don't understand why..
I always, secretly comparing my life with my cousins...

Dorang kena beli baju baru tapi saya pakai baju lama kakak-kakak saya..
Baju sekolah pun sama..

Family cousin pigi makan angin around Sabah, kami?
Sana-sana rumah, diam-diam...

Then, now saya punya giliran menjadi ibubapa...
Bit by bit I now understand how much sacrifce being a parents are...

At least saya boleh lagi pigi melancong, spend time with friends, kupi-kupi...
But my parents didn't had he privilege to do so...
Walaupun dia tidak kasi beli kami barang-barang atau baju baru, surprisingly kami tidak pernah lapar, idak pernah telanjang, tidak pernah berhujan sebab tiada tempat tinggal...
Dorang korbankan setiap masa dorang hanya untuk pastikan kami hidup dan ada education...
Mungkin bapa saya tekanan, which explain his source of relief was consuming alcohol but even with that, dia masih seorang bapa yang bertanggungjawab...
Tidak pernah cuti sakit walaupun teruk kogutan dia the next day....

And now here I am, thinking about how hard it is becoming a mother...
Thinking about my next getaway...
How I want to stop working....

Adakah saya belum sedia mau sacrifice like my parents?
Am I not strong enough...

SHE: ........................

Just trying....

As a human. of course we are in every way susceptible to temptation from evil. Sometimes we win, sometime we lose.

But we have to try. The best we can to be a better person. to follow our faith. To reject sin.

Nothing is easy, but have you even try?

SHE: temporary life is not what I after

Triggered

Ada benda di dunia yang kita perlu sensitif, ada yang tidak...
Kalau benda itu penting, melibatkan maruah, keamanan yes!!! we should be sensitive..

Tapi kalau benda yang remeh temeh, propaganda dan tidak penting, tidak payahlah jump to the bandwagon bersama-sama orang yang mencipta cerita-cerita itu.

BUANG MASA SAJA!!

Contoh isu berus cat tidak halal.
Yang ini tiba-tiba yang extremist Kristian memanas..
Apa salah tu sign yang menyatakan berus itu tidak halal?
Bagi saya ngam la bah tu...
Sebab memang ada berus yang di buat dari bulu babi..
So by putting up those warning, at least we already help our fellow Muslims to not buying that specific brush..
Buka sikit pemikiran tu...
Jangan lah sempit sangat...
Kalau contoh penjual sudah tau barangan mereka diperbuat dari barangan tidak halal, takkan mereka TUTUP MATA saja kasi biar yang tidak boleh makan dan pegang benda tu menggunakan barangan tersebut.
Guna Otak bah kawan...
Guna akal dan kewarasan yang kena bagi ni...

Ni terus riuh rendah, pot pet pot pet...
Sensitif kunun!
Betul-betul macam Masalan *insert mata terbalik emoji here

Ok satu lagi...
Ni kaki-kaki share ni...
Cuba gia kamu buat simple research dulu sebelum share apa-apa di internet...
Jangan terlampau bergembira mau viral barang yang belum tentu sahih..
Paling senang pigi baca tu komen-komen tu isu...
Biasanya the truth terserlah di situ...
Bagus lagi kamu share pasal masakan ka, jokes ka..

Dan daripada buang masa pasal isu-isu berus ni, bagus lagi kita serius pasal benda-benda berkaitan negara....
Uiseh!
Pasal pemimpin yang HAISSSHHHH malas mau cakap....
Pasal crimes yang makin meningkat...
Ada lagi faedah...
Menambah kesedaran lagi...

SHE: Kamu pok like ka tu suka share dan viral bukan-bukan??

Young

When we were young, we tend to made bad decisions...
We always put our heart first, our brain later...

The time where we hate our parents for being "wrong" instead of being "sporting" or "hipster" or "modern"

Some of us go to the extent of doing things behind them and until it is too late, they cannot do anything anymore...

But the one we hurt the most is actually ourselves....
We might not feel it right away but slowly it will rot inside us and in the end, there is nothing left but regret...

I'm a bad decision maker myself but thankfully, I managed to pull out from the whirlpool of recklessness and rebelliousness before it is too late....
And I thank God for that....

I saw, witnessed some of them who do not having a second thought of their actions, in the end, fill with regret...
I'm not judging them...
I do not know what they had been through...

Young age is dangerous...
That is your "make or break", the "determinant"of where and what you want to do in your life....

Life should be live with no regret...
This life is only one time chance...
Live it right...
Don't waste it...

SHE: You deserve happiness.....