Take it or leave it

Kalau kamu inda suka bah, kamu stay or move on?
The best thing to do is to leave bah kan?
If you can't handle some peoples drama, why stay?

Atau kesimpulannya, kalau inda suka, kita undur diri...
Inda payah susah2 mau melayan orang/tabiat yang kita inda minat....

Macam juga ni blog, if it is nonsense to you, why the need to continue reading?
Why bah why...

So, mama PM me thru' WA yesterday afternoon.
Dia meluahkan perasaan dia....
Dia sakit hati pasal tabiat seseorang...
Kesian gia my mama...
Mama saya ni dia punya penyabar tahap dewa bah...
Dia inda cerewet lagi...
Kalau dia inda puas hati, dia diam saja...
Dia tidak pigi jaja jaja cerita pasal kelemahan orang sama orang lain...

Saya ingat bah masa saya kicik lagi,
My dad was an alcoholic..
Kalau mabuk, start la tu bapa mengamuk but inda la dia pukul mama but tu bapa teriak2 la, marah2 la...
Mama sabar saja...
My grandma (dad's mom) tidak suka mama pun, mama sabar saja...
Sendiri2 tahan hati but mama still layan my nenek bagus2 walaupun nenek saya cerewet betul....

Okay, pasal mama meluah tu...
Dia kecewa sama satu orang ni...
Saya kesian juga sama mama saya bah...
Tapi I can't do nothing but only listen..

Ini nasihat saya sama diri sendiri dan orang yang berkenaan...
Kalaupun kau SANGAT INDA suka sama mama saya, tulunglah tidak payah kasi tunjuk sama mama saya KETIDAK SUKAAN kau tu...
Mama saya inda pigi kasi buruk2 kau juga....
Maybe once in a while mama ada tegur kau but it is because dia anggap kau anak bah...
Kami sudah tua gini pun masih kena tegur, kalau langsung dia tidak peduli, jangan haraplah dia mo peduli but mom is not someone like that..

Kalaupun kau tidak mau kena peduli, don't show it PLEASEEEEE!!
Be matured bah...
FAKE IT if possible...
Walaupun you hate my mom, ko berpura2 saja suka dia, good enough...
Tua sudah bah si mama tu...
Hati pun cepat touch...

Honestly, saya kalau tidak suka something, saya diam saja, senyum tidak perlu kata apa2...
Lainlah kalau tu orang duluan yang inda mo tingu muka kau then the other person deserves same treatment too....

Mama saya bukan mau minta layan macam Queen..
Mama saya sedar diri juga dia siapa...
Tapi to treat her like she doesn't exists is too much especially from a person like you..
Educated person like you....

It shows that your personal communication skill FAIL!

Inda apalah...
Teruskan sahaja gaya kau begitu....
We both (mom & me) pray the best for you...

I tell my mom, not to think too much..
Let it go...
Not worth the time to layan orang sebegini....

Rainy day update

Currently it is raining cats and dogs outside and there is not much I can do in this office.

So many activities was planned for months ahead.

Wedding to attend, hiking or jungle trekking to be more exact and traveling.

I'm not that type of person that going public abt my plan to travel to other countries. I don't see the reason too. I'm an ordinary traveler. Nothing to brag abt my traveling experience. Yes, it was "running from daily life" kind of therapy.

I do share photos, stories. As a mementos for myself. But that doesn't entitles me to be "pakar" or "champion". Far from that.

Tiada gunanya kalau melancong itu cuma untuk menunjuk-nunjuk dan tidak membuka mata kita tentang what real life is.

Travel for me should be about soul searching, humility and seeing the world in a little bit of different perspective. Not about telling the whole world you had conquered the whole continents. But again, this is solely my point of view.

Off to other topic, sometimes I try very hard to understand peoples who parade their purchase on social media. Every single time they purchase things, mesti kena post di SEMUA media dia. Gitew! Maybe saya jealous juga bah ni kan sebab saya bukan tidak mampu tapi saya banyak komitmen. Too many things that money related mau kena settle. Lagipun barang2 yang kena show off tu semua branded. *insert muka panjang mulut*. That is why I had unfollow (bukan unfriend or block ah) many peoples' timeline from appearing on my wall. Sakit mata dan hati bah. Inda kemampuan ako membeli barang-barang gitu. Ha!Ha!Ha!

Apa2 pun semoga kamu semakin kaya raya dan semakin banyak kamu boleh tembirang di FB kah, IG kah, atau mana2 lah.

Kbye!

Are you brave enough

This medium has become the media for me to throw away my frustration about almost anything and 99% of its are in regard to the unhealthy workplace after a new leadership taking over.

Not only the new leader is stupid, every single traits as a bad leader, you name it, has their names on his.

As an additional misery, a pain in the ass colleague. Only 1 btw. The rest are okay.

Bit by bit of myself is dying.
Less feeling.
Zombie-like.
No fun.

My hatred is so thick that sometimes I wish a bad karma catching up fast to all these peoples.